SO SHOCKED!!

Went to see Dr. Cooper today and while Ben and I were sitting in the waiting room, we were just talking- he asked if I though I had dilated any and I said no. Well, once we got back to the room and she checked me, she said, "you're dilated to 3 cm!" I was in total shock and so was Ben! Then she's going to say, "wanna come in tomorrow morning at 6 am to be induced?" I was still a little overwhelmed to know that I had dilated to 3 cm and she's asking me if I want to be induced!! We decided on Thursday and if I'm at 5 cm at 6 that morning, she's going to let me have him without Pitocin to make my contractions start.

I was thinking I wasn't going to be dilated any and therefore, I wanted to be induced but, if I had dilated, I wanted to go on my own.

I can't believe that NO MATTER WHAT, Benjamin will be here in 2 days!! 2!!! I'm so excited.. I don't think Me nor Ben is going to get sleep tomorrow night!

I can't wait to hold him!

We'll both be parents soon!! I can't wait to have my happy little family! Doesn't seem like I've waited 9 almost 10 months!!

Going to be a Mommy SOON!!!

Went to the doctor again yesterday. Thought I might have Toxemia since I'm showing all of the sypmtons except for high blood pressure and protein in the wee. They took blood just in case and sent me to hear Benjamin's heartbeat! It sounds great and I'm measuring at 38 1/2 cm to 39 cm (weeks). The nurse was pressing on my ankles and feet to see if it left indentations. Dr. Cooper was at the office (which normally the doctors only come on Monday's) and told me I needed to come to her office if I haven't had Benjamin by next Tuesday.

I'm thinking she's going to lay everything out with me and then go from there. I'm hoping when she "checks" me, I've dilated and I've thinned out a little and he'll come on his own!

I'm still hoping for the best and I can't wait to see my baby boy!

I can't believe he'll be here so soon! I'm so excited but so nervous- all at the same time!

I'm definitely ready to begin a new chapter in life with my boys!

37 weeks and 6 days

Went to the doctor again yesterday! She could feel his head and says he's far down!! It's so exciting to know that he could be here any day now!! I'm ready for him!!

Seems like 15 days is too long of a wait but, I'm still hoping for an earlier baby! So, Benjamin Lawson, come soon! :)

His heartbeat was 162 bpm and I measured right at 38 weeks! Hopefully he'll come tomorrow and if not AT LEAST by Friday or the next Friday!

I'm getting more and more anxious as the days go by and I just want these contractions to start so I can just get the pain over with and enjoy my baby boy!

Doctor's Appointment

Monday was our doctor's appointment and I saw Ms. Reed! She's one of my favorites! She always goes over everything to the best of her ability!

Just like every visit, she let us hear Benjamin's heart beat which was 141-146 bpm. She then measured my uterus and surprisingly, it was a 1/2 cm smaller than the week before! She felt on my tummy and told me Benjamin's head was really far down and he had his back turned towards mine and that's why I'm having lots of back pain.

She told me a few exercises to do to get him to roll over and have his back to my belly so when I go into labor, I don't have back labor. I'd sure hate that!!

We've decided on not having any guests besides close family because of the flu going around. I'm so terrified of us getting the swine flu and then giving it to Benjamin.

On the bright side of things, I've got 21 days until my due date. As the 24th gets closer, I'm getting so anxious! Pretty soon my baby boy will be here! I can't wait to hold him in my arms and see him face to face! I know he's going to be such a cute little baby look just like his daddy!

36 weeks and 1 day pregnant

I'm finally getting closer to my due date! It seems so unreal that my little man will be here soon! I keep telling myself he will come on the 10th but now, I have a feeling he's going to wait until the beginning of October!

I had a dream last night that he was born with red hair and weighed 7 lbs and 11 oz! I couldn't see his face but, I know it was my baby! Even though I've had the 3d/4d ultrasound and basically saw his EXACT features, I still can't imagine what he looks like!

In the pictures, he looks a lot like Ben and that makes me so happy! I wanted him to have my nose but, who knows if it'll be like mine! I hope he has his daddy's eyes and has super blonde hair!!

I can't wait for him to be born! I'm so ready to hold him in my arms and each day I'm getting more anxious!

Once I'm able to hold him, I'll probably wish I was still pregnant and watching my belly grow but as of today, I'm so tired of having a big belly! I'm so uncomfortable and I can never get in a good position to fall asleep. I stay up tossing and turning all night. During the day, if I'm not going to the bathroom, I'm trying to catch my breath because Benjamin's so big and squishing my lungs.

Only 1 week and 6 days until the 10th but, I really have 3 weeks and 6 days!!

I've started going to the doctor every week now and hopefully soon, I'll be checked to see if I've dilated or if my cervix has thinned at all!

I hope by next Monday, I've dilated a few cm and Thursday my little man will be here!! I'm looking forward to holding him and giving him all of my love!

Baby Shower for Benjamin Lawson

On Saturday, August 15, my mom threw a baby shower for my little boy and me! There were lots of people to show up and I had a blast getting to see all of the gifts everyone bought for Baby Benjamin! He received a lot of nice gifts and I can't wait for him to use them all!

We decorated in a safari theme because right now, that's what I'm really in love with! The theme for his room is monkeys, so, I added a few more animals and that was the theme for the shower! Of course, we had a blue punch and the cakes were ice cream with yellow cake. One cake was vanilla and the other was cookie dough! Talk about YUMMY!

Benjamin got 3 rainforest bath tubs, a duck tub, towels, wash clothes, bottle warmer, blankets, bibs, diapers, wipes, baby einstein cd, and 2 diaper bags, and a painting of a monkey for decorations in his room! It was baby heaven!

We've got every thing set up for him now, we're just waiting for his arrival!! We're so excited! Only 5 weeks and 1 day left!

I can't wait to meet my baby boy and finally hold him!!

Maddy's birthday

August 8, Ben and I went to Rainbow City for his niece's 3rd birthday party! It was our first time getting to meet and hold baby Acton as well. When we arrived at Ryan's house everyone was getting ready to go to the park to celebrate Maddy's birthday! She was so excited! When we got to the park, all the kids were running around and having a blast! Me and Ryan got to talk for a while and of course, I got to give Acton all of the loving I've been meaning to do! He was a day shy from being a month old and I've been waiting to see him since the day he was born! I didn't want to share him with anyone but, I had to give him up! Everyone started eating hot dogs and chips and then it was time to sing "Happy Birthday" to the birthday girl!! Everyone ate cake and ice cream while she opened all of her gifts! Me and Uncle Benjamin got her a Princess Easy Bake Oven for toddlers that you bake with ice! It was pretty cool looking and of course, she got a Madeline doll and lots of Elmo stuff! She loves Elmo! After her party, everyone went back to Ryan's house and we all sat around talking and laughing! Maddy had a blast with all of the other kids!! Can't wait to see them all again!