Finding out I was pregnant at 20 was so scary. Although, I wasn't totally ready or prepared for the news on January 26, 2009, I was completely excited! I had a few worries but my biggest was telling my mom. I always knew that I'd become a mother some day but never in my wildest dreams did I imagine I'd be having a little one at the age of 20! It took 2 weeks to tell my mom that I was pregnant and Ben's family knew right away- I think they were the most excited! As soon as we found out we were having a baby, I think we started praying for a boy! I knew deep down it was and pretty soon, we were having our first ultrasound. On April 13, 2009, we were sitting at Auburn Diagnostic, waiting to see the ultrasound tech! That morning, I woke up and told myself, you're going to have a girl- be prepared! Finally, the tech came out to the lobby and called my name! I was so excited but so nervous at the same time! I really wanted a little boy for my first child and since I told myself I would be those 16 weeks, I was so worried she'd be telling me we were having a baby girl! The day of my ultrasound I was suppose to be around 18 weeks. She told me that I was only 16 and that I'd have to come back for another ultrasound because she couldn't see everything she needed to. I was asking so many questions and she told me I had to hold on. I couldn't stop asking if he was a boy or girl. She said she could see the sex and that she was going to get the family. I told "I hope it's a boy". She gave me the craziest look and walked out of the room. While she was getting everyone, I laid on the table and prepared myself to hear "you're having a girl". Even though I really wanted a boy, I was smiling inside thinking I was about to have a baby girl. Everyone came into the room after what seemed like forever- I really wanted to see the baby and see what we were having! Everyone stood around and watched the screen as she showed us his body, head, heart, hands, and legs. Ben was holding my hand so tight when we were getting our first glimpse of our little baby. It took her about 5 minutes to show us everything about the baby and we had worked ourselves up til we couldn't stand it anymore. She started moving around by his little legs and all of a sudden, she said "IT'S A BOY"!! We were thrilled to death! Ben gave me the biggest kiss he had ever given me and I was so excited! After we left the ultrasound place, I went straight to the mall and bought my little man some clothes! My favorite store was Gymboree in Columbus! They had the cutest clothes you could possibly think of! I think I bought every whale outfit they had of the little whales!
Then came our second ultrasound, May 18, 2009,- Benjamin weighed 10 oz and had gained 5 oz since the ultrasound we had from the previous month! At this ultrasound, I was so amazed at how big my little peanut had gotten! He didn't even fit into the ultrasound picture like he did in the first one! I was so shocked but glad to see my little man was growing and was healthy as could be!
A month later, on June 26, 2009, we had our 3d/4d ultrasound. I thought I was shocked at the ultrasound a month before! We got to see our little boy as if he were right in front of us! To my surprise, he weighed 2 pounds and 10 oz! He had gained another 2 pounds! I couldn't believe my eyes when we first got our little peep of what Benjamin looked like! He didn't look anything like I imagined but then again I don't know what I pictured him to look like! He has the cutest chubby cheeks, mommy's nose, and daddy's lips! Exactly what I wanted! She showed us his spine and heart and the four chambers and how the blood went through them. It was amazing actually seeing what he looked like and how his body was forming. After we left Baby Waves, I was so happy and couldn't wait for him to be here! I was almost 27 weeks when we had the ultrasound but the tech told us I was 27 and 4! I was so happy that she was telling me I had less time to carry him. I knew I still had a while to go but the thought of him being here sooner really made me happy!
Today, I am at 32 weeks and 3 days! I'm counting down the days for Benjamin to be here! I hope he's here sooner than later and hopefully on the 10th or 11th of September and not the 24! I can't imagine what it will be like to hold him in my arms and see him face to face. I am going to miss feeling his little kicks and punches and rolling over in my belly but, I know we're going to bond in many other ways! I can't believe how much I love him and worry about him and he's not even here yet! I love him more than I could ever imagine loving someone!
